I wish I could go back.

Not about him. but you.



LIFE.

We always say that life isn't fair, but what have we done to deserve better?

Have been feeling so down lately. It's like I'm surrounded by smiles but my heart is just showing me a frown. Seriously I know what I told myself to do. I know that I shouldn't be like this. I know I know. But just because I know doesn't mean that I'll be able to do it. I've been trying so hard lately. I really am.

I know that just because I treat someone like a really close friend doesn't mean that I am theirs too. I know that just because someone means alot to me doesn't mean that I will mean alot to them too. I know that just because I care doesn't mean that you have to care too.

Lately, everything seems different. We both said that things would never change. Maybe you don't feel it, but I do. You have the whole world waiting for you but with limited time. You have to live your life the way you want to. Whatever your plan is, I already know how this would turn out, in the end.


Again, with tears in my eyes.
I slowly erase the promises you made.
I try to put down hope.
I try to face everything with a smile.

Again, with a missing piece.
I gather the rest of the pieces and stick them back together only to watch them fall into pieces again.
I mend it with the memories of the past which never last long.
I tell myself nevermind, its okay, its nothing. yet it takes another piece of me away.







I'm only afraid to lose you.

Too afraid.

So I try to get any chance I can.

But I never did get any.











ahiddenshadow.
shzexiann.